I Put A Spell On You Mar 2, 2019 14:33:48 GMT -5
Post by Guinevère on Mar 2, 2019 14:33:48 GMT -5
Guinevère felt numb. Which was better then the heartbroken, the fear, the self-loathing that she felt before she'd cried for the night. Even still she felt like crying, but she wasn't sure that she could cry any more. She had to figure out what she was going to do! Where she was going. The border of Camelot was behind her now, and even though there was no wall that magically protected her from harm with in it's walls--she felt more afraid since crossing it. The wide unknown was out there, and she had never sought to see what was beyond it. Especially alone.
She'd wanted nothing more then a home, and Arthur. She'd loved him, and she'd hurt him. Betraying her almost husband and king! And what was worse, she couldn't explain WHY she'd done it. She knew why, she knew that her feelings had gotten the better of her but looking back it felt as if she wasn't her. She wasn't the type to play loose games with her emotions! Yes, she'd loved Lancelot. He was her first love. The first man she'd felt anything for! Yes she loved Arthur! She loved him with her whole heart! She'd fallen in love with a little more each day and she wanted to marry him!
Yet, when Lancelot came back from the dead . . . . she didn't understand how she'd felt that way! She'd asked him to die for Arthur. She hated herself for that too. At the time fear had make her ask it of him, and he'd died--because she'd asked it of him. Seeing him come back . . . it had been overwhelming to know he hadn't died! She'd lost her head int he giddiness of the emotions and . . . . and betrayed both men. Betrayed Arthur. Her king. Her self.
Blinking back tears she tried again to think of where she needed to go tomorrow; but was distracted when she heard something. Was someone out there? Grabbing her dagger she stood up, and looked slowly around. Her heart beat harder as she tried to look out into the darkness and find the source of the sound. Yet, the fire only lit so far, and everything beyond it's light was all ominous shadows.