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Post by Griff Aubert on Nov 17, 2011 19:21:18 GMT -5
Griff jumped slightly as Caitrin's fist collided with the door. He hadn't been expecting that, although her frustration at the situation was hardly surprising. Like her, he didn't know what to do, but unlike her, he was supposed to. Regardless of whether Caitrin accepted this or not - and he knew for a fact she wouldn - he was supposed to look after her, to make sure nothing harmed her. And, well, so far he'd failed. When Morgana had taken over Camelot he had been as far away from the city as he could - drowning his sorrows in far too much ale. He hadn't known exactly what had happened to those who had stayed, but even so, he hadn't gone back. He hadn't tried to protect her from it. And even if he had, he wouldn't have been any use.
He clenched his fists, nails digging into his palm. There had to be something he could do, some way to make everything alright again, to make sure Caitrin was safe. But no, they were stuck here, waiting until...whatever was out there came, simply because Griff wasn't good enough.
When she sat down next to him he instinctively put an arm around her. It was, in the current circumstances, hardly an adequate way of protecting her, but then he was a hardly adequate husband. She had suffered when he had been too busy trying to forger her, and she continued to suffer because he'd let her. And while, deep down, in the back of his mind, wherever, he knew that there was nothing either of them could have done to prevent her miscarriage, there was always that thought that nagged at him. If only he'd gone back, if only he'd got her out of there. Everything would have been fine.
He kissed the side of her head, and tried to think of something, anything to say to make her happy again. It didn't matter what he felt about losing their child, his own grief was irrelevant because Caitrin - his wife - was in pain and he needed to protect her. "Don't say that." It was a rather pathetic attempt. "Cait, none of this is your fault. None of it. And I'm sorry but I won't see you like this." He sighed, this wasn't going right at all. Normally he was always so good with words, normally he could make women feel whatever he wanted, but then it had always been different with Caitrin. "This isn't the time to grieve, this is the time to be strong. We are going to be alright, I promise you."
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Post by Griff Aubert on Nov 17, 2011 18:59:48 GMT -5
Just realised this is the second time Griff's been shirtless in this thread. Those crazy kids.
Yes, there were worse things to wake up to - he knew this from experience. But that was neither here nor there. He wasn't that person anymore, or at least he wasn't mostly that person anymore, and that was near enough the same thing. He was quite sure - although his feelings were probably making him slightly biased - that Caitrin was the most beautiful of all the women he'd ever woken up next to. She was certainly the one that had taken the most work. "Well I would know..." He replied, his...prowess with the ladies was hardly a secret. It was something he prided himself on, and just because he happened to be here with Caitrin wasn't going to change the fact that women all over Albion were constantly throwing themselves at him. It was just something she was going to have to get used to, he supposed.
He hadn't been that aware before - his thoughts being otherwise engaged - but when she pulled the bed covers and ended up shifting slightly towards him, he realised just how warm she was, and how nice she smelt and just how perfect she was. This was Caitrin without the sarcasm and the need to prove to the world just how strong she was. And at the same time, this was him without the put-upon narcissism (almost) and the inadequacy, because he wasn't inadequate, not right now. He was Griff Aubert and she was Caitrin de Archer and this was just...happiness.
But it wasn't to last. It seemed Caitrin had a habit of always giving him an oppurtunity to revert back to his egotism, and he was unable to do anything but rise to the challenge - especially when that also involved the promise of more moments like this one. "Oh do you now? Well, I've never had any complaints before...speaking of which..." he paused, not quite sure how he should phrase his train of thought. There had to be a way to say what he wanted without enduring any physical pain afterwards. "How as...it. I mean obviously it was enjoyable, that goes without saying, but you know...first time and all..." There, that wasn't entirely insensitive...
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Post by Griff Aubert on Nov 17, 2011 10:43:24 GMT -5
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Post by Griff Aubert on Nov 7, 2011 9:32:51 GMT -5
That was a silly idea. Honestly, he'd taken Gwaine to be more intelligent than that. What good would be be to Griff if they were both in this state? No, Griff just wanted him drunk enough to cheer him up, not too drunk to stand up by himself. "It wouldn't. But you can hold your drink." Men like Gwaine usually could. "Then you'll be mostly drunk." Obviously. To Griff that was perfectly logical. He just wanted someone to be drunk with, being in this state alone was never socially acceptable.
He had a feeling, or maybe it was just wishful thinking, that Gwaine would be very good at cheering him up with fewer inhibitions. While his advice had given Griff something to think about, and he was grateful for the company, he just wanted some fun. He'd been in this sorry state for far too long and he didn't much care for it.
Hmm that was a good question. Griff didn't actually know how much he'd had to drink. All the taverns had blended into one in his memory. Too much, probably, or at least too much to anything more productive than continuing to drink. "I have no idea. Don't care, not important." He replied dismissively. His head was going to hate him in the morning, but he didn't care. He didn't care about much anymore.
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Post by Griff Aubert on Nov 6, 2011 19:21:50 GMT -5
"Good morning." He replied, still smiling at her. It certainly was a good morning, one of his best by far. Her words made his smile even wider, something which a few months ago would have been horribly embarrassing. He was supposed to be the one making women feel like this, not the other way around, but then he'd have to give up on that way of thinking. He was turning his life around, and hopefully becoming a better person for it. He was certainly a much happier person.
He was probably supposed to answer her words seriously, with sincerity, and say that yes, it was entirely possible to be this happy because he was that happy too, and to tell her it was all because of her. But if he behaved like he was supposed to then he wouldn't be in this position in the first place. If he was anything it was a narcissist, and one which would never give up such a good oppurtunity. "Yes, it is." He said and kissed the tip of her nose before continuing. His start was conventional, that was enough surely. "Anyone would be happy after waking up next to me..."
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Post by Griff Aubert on Nov 6, 2011 19:08:48 GMT -5
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Hmm, Caitrin was annoyed. This was not unusual. It seemed to be her default position, either that or flirting with some random man, then again, he was no better. It was a wonder how they managed to not kill each other. Actually, it was a wonder how she'd managed not to kill him, his killing skills were rather wanting. The only good thing about Caitrin's current state of annoyance was Yassia's presence, and while she seemed pretty intent on the fact that she would make sure he knew just how annoyed she was as soon as Yassia was no longer there, it gave Griff some hope that maybe he could talk his way out of it, or, and this was his preferred method, be sober enough to flirt his way out of it.
Yassia didn't seem terribly pleased about his leaning on her. This was confusing. Who would want to be used in such a way, especially by Griff? In his drunken state it seemed perfectly normal that someone should jump at the chance to have him leaning on them. Before he could voice such confusion Caitrin had taken over and his weight was now on her. Looks like someone did appreciate such an oppurtunity after all. Normally he would have protested - it was hardly manly to have to lean on one's fiancé to remain upright - but being manly wasn't his primary concern at the moment. "I didn't drink that much!" He protested, only slurring his words slightly. He had drunk just enough, and besides, it was hardly anything compared to the amount Caitrin's uncle had managed to knock back.
He appeared to be moving towards the bed. Either he was far more intoxicated than he thought and had lost the ability to feel his own legs moving, or Caitrin was doing it. In his current state either was possible. He just left her to it, actually rather tired and aware of how inviting that bed looked, especially with Caitrin next to him, and then something caught his attention. What was that? "Mercia? What are you talking about?" He wasn't sure if this was new information or whether he had just forgotten about it, either way though, he was just confused again.
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Post by Griff Aubert on Nov 6, 2011 15:52:26 GMT -5
There were very few moments in Griff's life which could be described as happy. There was always something going on, something nagging him at the back of his mind, telling him that he shouldn't get used to this new feeling, things were going to change, he might as well just stop whatever he was doing and accept this. This was not one of those times.
Caitrin was asleep, or rather he assumed she was asleep, he didn't want to disturb her to find out. She was just lying there, looking perfect. He smiled, one of those genuine smiles that were so rarely across his features. He shuffled closer to her and kissed her shoulder. For once he wasn't thinking of some reason why he had to leave, or wondering where he was going to run off to next. He was just watching Caitrin and running a finger lightly down her back.
Right now, he just felt happy, there was finally something good in his life because she was here, and actually being quiet which was a first, even if she probably wasn't conscious. He'd have to learn to appreciate moments like this, they probably wouldn't occurr very often. And that was when he caught himself thinking about the future, something he'd never done before. He used to live in the moment and not care about anything or anyone, not even caring about himself most of the time. Yet here he was, deciding that actually he did want to think about his future and what he wanted in life - he wanted her.
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Post by Griff Aubert on Nov 6, 2011 15:12:33 GMT -5
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Oh, well, this was nice and awkward, or at least it would have been if Griff wasn't drunk and therefore invincible and beyond the powers of awkwardness. What he wasn't, however, drunk or otherwise, was beyond the powers of gravity, and had to steady himself against the wall, obviouslty the best way to do this was using his forearm. For a second or two he had absolutely no idea who the brunette was, or how she knew his name and was only able to to stare at her with furrowed eyebrows and a slightly open mouth. And then his brain decided to pay attention and his look of confusion turned into one of recognition. "Yass!" Everything made sense once more. "Cait's not-"
"Now sir, you appear to be in my room. Now tell me, how many other women were you intending to flirt with tonight?"
He stopped mid-sentence, pressing his lips together and turning his head slowly. Maybe she was here after all. This was brilliant. He just stared at the woman, trying to figure out if there was something he could say that would make the less dangerous. "I wasn't flirting..." He replied, trying to laugh it off, "I was saying hello..." Griff pushed himself from the wall, quite impressed that he was managing to stand up by himself, although he was swaying slightly. "Is there," he began, raising a hand, "Any way to get out of this? Before you answer," he tried using that hand to gesture towards Yassia, but ended up losing his balance and stumbling forward. Luckily for Griff, but perhaps unluckily for Yassia she was the first thing he found to steady himself on, or rather her shoulder was. "We are in the company of a friend..." Hopefully that would save him, for now at least.
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Post by Griff Aubert on Nov 6, 2011 12:32:00 GMT -5
No, he hadn't given her the chance to answer. That was because there was no need. And no, that wasn't just Griff being his usual egotistic self. It was just common sense. "Did I need to?" He asked with his signature flashy grin. Again, it was a question that he already knew the answer too. But it would be nice to hear it. Obviously right now he really needed his ego fuelling.
He had, of course, been in positions like this with women before. It was one of the few things he was actually good at, practice made perfect after all. And yet even though he prided himself in that this was something he could do, this was something he did often, and this was something that, let's be honest, most of his life revolved around, he couldn't stop himself being quite so nervous. It was a ridiculous situation. He had no need to be nervous.
Caitrin was supposed to be just another name in a long list of conquests. This was how this had all started in the first place. He'd seen her in the stables and decided that he would do all that he could to get to where he was now. Somewhere along the way he'd fallen in love. She had been rude and angry and annoying and clever and charming and quite frankly, she was the most wonderful person in the world. And here she was, stood in front of him, all that beauty and fire and he was so horribly nervous. As he had had to tell himself over and over again, he was Griff Aubert, women didn't make him nervous. He was supposed to be the one in control, well, that was until Caitrin had come along.
He kissed her again, revelling in the tingling sensation in his lips, how she tasted, how everything else seemed to melt away and didn't matter anymore. It was just her and him, and the bed of course... When he eventually broke away there was that glint in his eye, because if there was something else he was good at it was hiding his true feelings, pretending he wasn't nervous at all. "So milady," he began to speak, before lowering his head and kissing his way down her neck. "I guess the next question is," he looked back at her, a smirk across his lips, "Which one of us is taking my shirt off?"
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Post by Griff Aubert on Nov 6, 2011 9:15:28 GMT -5
This was would be one of the few times that Griff actually told the truth, with no hint of exaggeration. Corneous would never have allowed a son of his to grow up without knowledge in swordplay, something Griff had never much cared for, but had endured anyway and ended up not being too bad at it. Of course had he known that one day he would stuck in a room with his wife hiding from...whatever those things were supposed to be, then he probably would have put in a lot more effort. He was at least competent, and that was the main thing. "I know how to use one...just haven't for a while." He knew the basic principles of using such a weapon, and was now regretting not having had any practice since...actually he couldn't remember. Well, if all else fails he would just wave it around and hope for the best.
He stayed where he was on the floor, just watching as Caitrin walked over towards the door. To him, it didn't seem like there was a lot of difference between staying where they were or trying to get back to their room. Whatever it was that was out there, he highly doubted they would be stopped by a wooden door. At some point they were going to have to face it, it didn't matter to Griff where that was. "If you think we should." He replied with a shrug, still sat on the floor. There was no point standing up unless they were going to go back to their bedroom. "We're in danger wherever we are."
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Post by Griff Aubert on Nov 6, 2011 8:09:10 GMT -5
Apparantly trying to post angst while watching the awesome bromance that is Charles and Erik is a bad idea. Apologies for the length and mehness.
Well, the first stag of the plan was to get Gwaine as drunk as he was. Or maybe not as drunk, then they wouldn't be any position to anything. But it was no fun being in this state alone, and hopefully Gwaine's own intoxicated state could improve Griff's. He was normally such a happy drunk. A slightly confused and forgetful one mind, but normally happy. "The plan," Griff began raising his hand as he spoke, because that would make him look more authoritive, obviously. "Is that you should drink more." It was a sound plan, and one he was going to make sure was carried out in full. He still had a little ale in his own tankard, so he pushed it across the table. He definitely didn't need any more himself. "And then you can cheer me up."
Whatever they ended up doing, they definitely wouldn't be "drinking to past times". As much fun as past times had been, they would probably only serve to remind him of Caitrin and that wouldn't do at all. He was moving on with his life. It was a rather good feeling. He'd missed those.
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Post by Griff Aubert on Nov 5, 2011 18:34:56 GMT -5
It was quite probable that Griff Aubert had had too much to drink. Evidence to suggest such a theory included, but was not limited to, the fact that he was having to rely on an almost stranger to help him back to his chamber. He’d only met this Tristan fellow a few minutes ago. The man had been looking miserable and refused any wine, so naturally Griff had had to go and introduce himself. Or at least attempt to. It hadn’t gone exactly to plan, and just resulted in Griff colliding with a wall. Almost instantly, Tristan had declared Griff too drunk to continue being in the Great Hall and told him he was being taken back to his chamber. Easier said than done, as neither of the two men was sure where that was.
It was all Caitrin’s fault for leaving really. She knew where they wanted to be, she was probably there now. Enjoying the warmth and comfort of the room, and generally being in a better state than Griff was. In his opinion, that was just selfishness.
“Hang on! I think this is it!” Griff declared, rather triumphantly, pointing at a closed door.
Tristan looked at him sceptically. “Are you sure?”
“Yes, I’m sure. I’m never wrong.” He was rather offended that he was being questioned.
“Hmm. Well alright. If you’re sure.”
“I am.” He pushed himself forward, no longer relying on the young knight to remain standing, but ended up leaning against the wall.
Tristan still wasn’t convinced, but he didn’t particularly feel like spending the rest of his evening with the man so just shrugged and said, “I’ll leave you to it then.” before making his way back downstairs.
Griff stood in the corridor for a few seconds, momentarily having forgotten just what he was about to do. Ah yes. Sleep. Sleep was good. It was something he was quite looking forward to. Maybe Caitrin was asleep, that would be annoying. He’d probably fall over and wake her up and then she’d be annoyed. It was such a hard life he led. Oh well. There was nothing he could do about that at the moment. He just wanted his bed. On opening the door he practically threw himself into his room, only instead of seeing a rather lovely redhead he found himself staring at a possibly lovely brunette. Maybe this wasn’t his room after all. That was embarrassing. “Oh. Hello.” If he’d turned his head a mere ninety degrees or so, he would have seen Caitrin. Only he didn’t, so he just remained confused. He mentally shrugged, deciding he might as well go with it. He grinned at the woman. It had been a long time since he’d had an opening line – not that anything was going to come of it mind, he was a happily engaged man, but a little flirtation was good for the soul. And besides, Caitrin wasn’t there. "I appear to be in your room..."
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Post by Griff Aubert on Oct 29, 2011 12:08:03 GMT -5
Well he thought it was perfectly obvious he was saying. Or at least to him it was perfectly obvious. But then he didn't have the most complicated of thoughts, so yes, it was perfectly obvious. He was a man, what else would be suggesting?
And she was doing the lip-biting thing again. She really shouldn't do the lip-biting thing if she was expecting something other than staring. After what seemed to be a rather long time, but was probably only a few seconds, he regained the ability to think coherently and was therefore in a position to reply to her earlier words.
"Oh I will definitely be taking advantage." He said with a grin and put a hand on her back so he could pull her closer to him. "Do you mind terribly?" He didn't give her time to answer - she'd only start teasing him again - instead he kissed her. It seemed far too long since he had last done so, and unsurprisingly her lips were just as soft and warm as he had expected them to be. When he broke away he found himself just looking at her, one hand cupping her jawline. God she was beautiful, and right now she was all his.
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Post by Griff Aubert on Oct 28, 2011 20:34:56 GMT -5
Well. That had been easy, but then Griff was just that good. He shouldn't be so surprised. His following her up the stairs was perhaps a little too eager, but he managed to slow himself down to a more reasonable speed. He didn't want Caitrin thinking that she was the one in control here, that simply wouldn't do.
When they eventually reached the top of the stairs and what was presumably her room - or rather what he really, really hoped was her room - he matched her grin. It was obvious they were both thinking the same thing now; there was no point in attempting any subtlety. And yet Griff found himself attempting it all the same. He walked into the room as casually and nonchalantly as he could. This was not the first time he had been in a young woman's room. In his arrogance and probably naivety - or was it hopefullness? - he assumed this was a new experience for Caitrin. He should, of course, know better, and yet strangely he didn't. But at present his mind was rather preoccupied.
He closed the door, leaning against it with his foot against the wood and his arms casually folded across his chest. For a moment he just watched her, a small smile on his lips. It soon turned into a smirk however, and he tilted his head, looking at her with a curious expression. "Well well, Lady Caitrin. It's hardly appropriate to be in your room with a young man and no chaperone. Some men might take advantage of the situation..."
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Post by Griff Aubert on Oct 28, 2011 20:03:35 GMT -5
Griff simply followed, rather submissively, as Caitrin pulled him through the house. He was still trying to take it all in, but she appeared to be a woman on a mission. There was a definite tone in her voice when she spoke to the messenger, and usually he would have made some comment or other, but he knew she had a strained relationship with her father. As someone who knew what that felt like he thought it was best to just let her carry on, besides, if he annoyed her now it would ruin would the plan he had in mind.
“Where would you like to start? Upstairs or downstairs?”
His flashy grin was about to make another appearance. Surely the answer to that question was obvious? Knowing Caitrin though she would probably make him spell it out. How annoying of her. He stepped forward so their bodies were nearly touching and just grinned at her. She must know what he was thinking - they had hardly been subtle about it before. He tilted his head, his grin now becomming more of a smirk. "Oh I think upstairs will be a lot more interesting."
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Post by Griff Aubert on Oct 28, 2011 19:01:48 GMT -5
Griff wasn't entirely sure what reaction he was supposed to have following Caitrin's words. He wasn't the one trying to be modest. If anything, her words just fuelled his ego even more - which was obviously not that easy a task. He had no problem whatsoever with her remembering him without a shirt on, he had no problem with her seeing it again either, although he would request another look at her legs. It would only be fair. "Is that supposed to worry me?" He tilted his head, eyebrows raised and giving her a questioning look. "I take it as a compliment."
"I shall look forward to it."
And now his mind had gone completely blank. Surprisingly enough for an embarrassingly long time he was only capable of staring at Caitrin with a rather wide-eyed look. It was a huge relief, therefore, when he finally managed to control himself and after clearing his throat managed a rather squeaky. "I'm sure you will." He cleared his throat again. This was not good. He was supposed to be being charming and alluring, not high-pitched and embarrassing. "I mean, I know you will." Well, that was well handled.
Griff wasn't sure if that comment was aimed at him or not. It seemed like she was just speaking aloud, in which case he didn't want to embarrass himself by replying, only to be told she wasn't actually talking to him. That was annoying. He had no problem with people talking to themselves, he did it often enough, but it was just rude and confusing when people did it when he was in the room. Instead he walked over to the desk, leaning against to the side of Caitrin with his arms folded across his chest. He was watching her hand as she wrote, before deciding it was none of his business so he should probably stop reading it.
He instead averted his gaze forwards, taking in his surroundings. This was certainly new territory for him - he'd never been invited into a woman's house before, wait, no, he had, but that was under very different circumstances. This, however, was a new experience, and, if he was honest, slightly unnerving. He wasn't sure how he should be behaving, and it didn't help that he could feel Rouland. It seemed like his presence was standing over his shoulder; very distracting when he was going to attempt to seduce Caitrin. "So," he began, drumming his fingers against the desk, "Am I going to get the grand tour?"
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Post by Griff Aubert on Oct 25, 2011 19:17:07 GMT -5
Griff, although he would actually like to get used it, and he was more than willing for Caitrin to get used to him without his shirt on, was in possession of a rather impressive memory – especially when women’s legs were involved. So although he might not be “getting used to it” he was certainly going to continue life with a rather vivid memory. This was especially true as Caitrin's had yet to adjust her skirt, so really, she was asking him to look. He was, after all, only a man, and those were rather lovely legs. What else was he to do? "I don't need to." He grinned, a wider grin that unusual, one that was reserved for when he was being particularly clever or impressive. "I have a memory."
He wasn't surprised by Caitrin's words, which probably said quite a lot about the both of them. They both had mind inappropriate enough to warrant this sort of talk, and it was part of the reason why he liked her so much. A lot of women would never dream of saying something so "outrageous". Caitrin, however, Caitrin said whatever she wanted, which, alright, was usually quite annoying, but when she was speaking like this it was anything but. "I will show you some time," he replied, his grin now looking more like his signiture one, "And trust me, you will definitely appreciate it." He had, at present, an untarnished record and was rather determined that it should remain just so.
As soon as his horse came to a stop Caitrin dismounted and he was slightly disappointed that they were no longer in such close proximity. He kept this feeling silent though and simply followed her, too busy taking in his surroundings to notice the servant take away Demetrius. It was bigger than he expected, and there was definitely an odd sensation at not only being in Caitrin's home, but in being in Rouland's as well. But he was supposed to be away, so that was something.
Although the prospect of watching Caitrin write a letter was hardly filling him with excitement, it was probably better than sitting by himself, probably rather awkwardly, in the solar. So he shrugged and said, "I'll come with you. Wouldn't want to deprive of a second out of my company."
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Post by Griff Aubert on Oct 24, 2011 18:53:21 GMT -5
To him, Caitrin’s question was a rather foolish one. Did he think they should stay in their current position and continue with her lying on top of him? Yes, yes he did. It might not be the greatest idea in terms of survival, but right now his libido was more important. Caitrin should know this. He quickly nodded, as though Caitrin would just leave if he didn’t answer in time. There was actually a rather slim chance of her doing that; she’d never just leave, well, unless they happened to be in a situation where their lives were endangered. Oh look.
Regretfully, he had to listen to his survival instinct – joy-killer that it was – and remind himself that now probably wasn’t the time. Well, it wasn’t even probably not the time. As not-the-times went, this was a fairly prominent one. That was annoying. Now he had to break the news to Caitrin. It wasn’t going to be easy. “I think, if we want to survive – and this is something we really ought to consider, I don’t mind either way, making that clear now – we should move from this position.”
At Caitrin’s next words he managed to resist the temptation to make some euphemistic comment or other, which he thought was quite impressive and deserved some recognition. Instead he decided to at least try and take the situations seriously. After all, they were still in quite a lot of danger and really, now was not the time to be inappropriate. He would just have to save all his comments until after they hadn’t died. That would be a struggle, but it was probably better than death.
Now that she was no longer lying on top of him he found himself being able to focus on the situation properly. She was right. They needed to arm themselves, which was rather handy considering where they were. Then again, that had been the point of them going there. He wasn’t exactly sure what to arm himself with, of course he’d had training in swordplay and archery as a child, but he wouldn’t include them on a list of his skills. Normally he just ran away or said whatever popped into his head and hoped it worked. “Right...so what exactly are we arming ourselves with?”
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Post by Griff Aubert on Oct 24, 2011 17:57:40 GMT -5
He missed her. That much was obvious. And he would probably continue to miss her until the day he died. There was no denying the fact that she was the most fantastic person in the world and that he would do anything just to see her again. And there was no denying that this would never happen. She made that quite clear. And maybe he would always regret his choices and maybe he would never quite be as happy as he was and maybe every time he was with a woman he would think of her. It would never be enough, nothing would, there would always be something not quite right. But maybe that was all he could hope for. He’d lived without her before, he could do it again. Granted he hadn’t known her, and part of him thought that it would have been better if he never had. But he loved her, even if she hated him, even if she couldn’t stand the thought of him, even if she forgot him, he would love her. He just wouldn’t think about it. And maybe he’d survive.
Right now, a life without women was the best suggestion he’d heard in two months. He’d just keep his head down for a while, and then everything would be fine. It probably wouldn’t be good, it most definitely wouldn’t be happy. It would be fine, which right now sounded seriously underestimated. To Griff, fine was just what he needed. Fine would let him not care; fine would let him return to his old self. Fine was a release from his current state.
He followed Gwaine in his toast, hoping that this was actually going to last and make him feel better. “A life without women.” He repeated and took a swig from his ale. Somehow it tasted sweeter now that he had a new life plan. This was going to be a good thing; he was going to get on with his life. Everything was going to be fine.
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Post by Griff Aubert on Oct 24, 2011 16:33:40 GMT -5
Yes, sobering up would probably be a good idea, and if their roles were reversed that would be the advice he would give to Gwaine. Drinking wasn't going to solve any of his problems or make them go away, hell, it did even make him forget them. Come to think of it, why was he drinking again? It wasn't actually making him feel better, which wasn't really that surprising. All he had gained so far was bad breath, which was lovely, but without drinking he'd feel purposeless. If he was trying to charm an ale or two from a clueless barmaid then at least he was doing something. And, honestly, was he going to do anything better sober? He'd still be charming clueless barmaids, just with a better vocabulary. There therefore seemed no point to being sober. "Would you sober up if you were me?" Not that Gwaine would be in this position of course, but even so.
"Perhaps you should try going back to this way of thinking. Is this Caitrin really worth ending up like this?"
His immediate reaction was to argue that yes, Caitrin was worth ending up like this. She was worth a lot more. And yet, there was nothing for him in this life. He couldn't go on like this and he certainly couldn't go back to Camelot. Maybe this was the only option he had left. After all, it had always worked before. He would make a mess of things, and then get drunk and find a woman and everything would be alright and he'd continue until he made a mistake again. It was a life he could deal with, hell, it was a life he could enjoy. He might not be with Caitrin, and while that would the hardest thing to accept right now, Gwaine was right. She wasn't going to spend the rest of her life pining after him.
"I think," Griff waved his hand at Gwaine as he spoke, "You may be right. I don't need Caitrin." He said firmly. Now he just needed to convince himself of that. That shouldn't be too difficult. He'd convinced himself of many things over the years. He'd convinced himself he could look after himself, convinced himself he didn't need anyone - and especially not his father, convinced himself that nothing could effect him, that he could breeze through life without any troubles. And then Caitrin de Archer had come and put a stop to all of that. But it hadn't mattered. Because she'd done the convincing. She'd made him feel wanted and loved and everything he'd never felt anymore. And now he had to convince himself that didn't matter. Of course it mattered. It was the most important thing in the world. But he could no longer have that. He just had himself.
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