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Lucan was most likely just as tired as Cam was. It had been a long trip for him and a long time of short lived nights of tossing and turning for her. Camila almost wished that they would just crawl into bed right now, and fall asleep. She longed to fall asleep with his arms around her. Just even knowing that he was sleeping next to hear would be enough reassurance for her and her mind could finally feel at ease. But Luc insisted on staying awake to spend time with her, which wasn't a bad thing, but they both obviously needed to sleep. Cam smiled a little at his words, the expression hardly making any sense to the situation, really. "You better." She said with a smirk on her face with a sudden change of mood - she didn't really think it was a mood swing, though. Camila reached up and kissed him to let him know she was only joking. She didn't need him to think that she was being serious. Yes it had been a disappointment to see him leave the day after her birthdaym but he had nothing to do with that, and even Arthur had told Cam that it hadn't been the plan for him to be gone so long or even much at all.

"Yes, it's safe. Caitrin has been making them for me and I trust her." Camila explained. "She took them herself when she was pregnant." And look how the twins turned out! They were amazing. Cam loved them to pieces and she loved seeing the look on Lucan's face when he got to play with them.

There was a slight tap on the door and Cam gave Luc a small look before walking over to the door. Behind it, a servant stood with a letter for her. She took it, thanking him as she turned back to her husband and closing the door. A thought lingered in the back of her mind. Thomas didn't really come to give them news or announcements when they were alone much anymore, probably still embarrassed about walking in on them all those months ago. The thought made her laugh on the inside as she opened the letter.

(bad! horrible! sorry!)

Cam's cheeks burned up a little when Lucan asked her if she was alright. Of course she was, but she couldn't let him know what she was just thinking and what was making her react like she did. How could she answer him in a wait that would not make him worry about her. He always worried too much. "I'm fine, love. Just... since I'm pregnant... my body has odd reactions from time to time. It's alright." She shook her head lightly. She hadn't lied to her husband, because her body would and was acting differently than it usually did. It was a good thing that she told him now because there would be tough days for him, as Caitrin explained to her one day. She mind get sick now and then, especially in the morning, she might have odd mood changes, as well as many other things. It all seemed worth it when she thought about their child.

Camila nodded. Somehow it had slipped her mind that Lucan and his father weren't on the best of terms and that his father was also ill. "Alright." She said simply, turning the bottle in her hands still. "We can go see my parents later on this week. You need to rest. A month and a half is a long time to be gone on a mission." And the time that he would take to rest, so would she since she finally could, now. She was already feeling all her sleepless nights slowly creeping up on her but she wouldn't let that show. Lucan didn't need to be concerned, she could handle herself.

She looked down at her hands with him and back up again at him as he took the bottle from her. Her cheeks burned a little again. "Oh. Like I had mentioned earlier, I've been taking sleeping draughts to get any sleep at all." Camila explained, tilting her head to the side a bit. "I think I can stop taking them now." She finished, a small grin drawing itself on her face.

True. Cam was a fighter, she knew it too. But that didn't do much to comfort her. When she looked back to the hardships she had been through over the past years, mainly when she had been taken by Morgana's men. She had been locked away in a lonely cell for Lord knows how long, only to be kept as a weapon to be used against Lucan, should he be too difficult. Yes, Camila had been a true fighter, not a brave one — she yelled until her throat burned and cried at least once a day for good amount of time — but she had fought and made it out with much of her old self intact for her then to become fiancé. Lucan called that a fighter, but she called it nearly making it out alive, with her sanity. Cam couldn't do much else besides give Lucan a sad grin and look down.

Camila gave a genuine smile as Luc gave his thoughts on the names. "Oh, I rather like that name. Samuel." It was a lovely name. Rolled off the tongue pleasantly. "Heidi or Samuel it is then." Cam got a littler more excited know that they had named their unborn child.

Cam let herself be led back to the Estate as they talked. "Nothing, really." She confessed, intertwining her fingers with his. "Things have been rather boring and lonesome without you, to tell the truth."

Camila looked down at their hands on her stomach again. She already had so much love for her unborn child that it hurt her to think that there was a chance that she might never get to raise him or her. But she would rather give her own life for her child in a heartbeat. Cam raised her face to let her husband wipe away her tears. His comment about this being the scariest thing he had ever encountered only slightly reassured her because it was a very frightening thing all the same. "If it was a fight or a war, I would at least know how to defend myself. But this... I don't know how..." It was so confusing. "My mother barely made it after she gave birth to me, Lucan." She reminded him sadly. "I want to be here for our child." All she knew was that if anything were to go wrong, she wanted Caitrin to help Lucan, she was perhaps the only person she trusted to, besides her own mother, but she was get old and she didn't need the burden.

Cam laughed at his reaction. Of course she was only teasing him. "I was thinking more along the lines of Camila the second?" She teased. "Well, yes, i have. But I want your opinions too." Camila added, resting her head on his armored shoulder. "If it's a boy, I was thinking maybe Benjamin or Lucas... And if it's a girl, maybe Nadia or Heidi... What do you think?" She asked, turning her head to look up at him. She really wanted to his opinion on the names she wanted and she wanted to hear his suggestions as well.

"We should really get you out of this armour, you know? It can't be all that comfortable." Camila added. It really looked heavy too and now that he was home, he didn't need it.

Camila was excited to have a child of her own. She had loved taking care of Arthur and Esmae during her stay with Caitrin and Griff so much. She had taken to the children and they, her. Cam also knew how important it was for Lucan and her to have a child, especially a boy. Girls weren't heirs. And seeing as Lucan would become the Duke of Glouchedon when his father past, there was pressure for Lucan to raise his own heir. Cam didn't care if it was a boy or a girl, she just wanted a child to love and to hold. She knew that Luc would feel the same.

Lucan kept stuttering in disbelief and Cam couldn't help but laugh a little. "It's rather exciting, isn't it?" Cam was almost bouncing with excitement. She took one of her hands off of Lucan's and stroked his cheek again. "You shouldn't worry so much, love." She said, giving him a smile before she gave him a gentle kiss. "We," She started, holding his hand against her stomach with both her hands again, a little tighter. "Are going to be fine."

Camila smiled, glad that he wasn't hurt, and that he was still himself. "Good." As long as he was back in one piece, it was all she could ask for. Cam knew that the quest was some of a secret and she respected that. She also didn't say a word when he replied to her courtly. She ask about it seeing as it obviously seemed to be a subject that Lucan didn't want to talk about. At least not right now. She would leave it alone until he wanted to talk about it. Cam just nodded.

She grinned when he offered her his arm and took it happily and let him lead her back into the garden. So he'd noticed. "I've been worried, I really can help but worry." She admitted. "I've been taking sleeping draughts to get any rest, but I guess I don't have to anymore." She added with a small grin at the thought. Cam pulled Lucan over to the bench she had been sitting on a moment ago and sat down, inviting him to sit with her. "But despite everything, I've got some terrific news." She beamed, taking his hand in hers. She felt a jolt of excitement rush through her. "Luc, I'm pregnant." She finally said, just waiting for his reaction.

Camila had had enough of staying with Griff and Caitrin after some time. They had been terrific hosts but Cam felt like she had been too much of a bother to them even if she had been helping Caitrin out with the twins a lot. Her in-laws seemed so happy that she felt as if she were just spoiling their mood with her constant worry about Lucan. Of course, they were strongly against her returning to Allard's Estate and staying there alone. Cam couldn't blame them; she was in a rough state when she was alone. So she promised she still go and visit during the day, mainly to please them but also to get herself out of the Estate at least once. There was nothing else she really felt like doing anymore. She didn't read anymore, or practice her archery, she hardly socialized besides Griff, Caitrin and the servants. She just wanted to fall asleep until her husband returned to save herself the trouble. Unfortunately, she couldn't. She could hardly sleep at all. She had been taking sleeping draughts to at least get some rest, she had to for the sake of her unborn child.

Cam sat in the garden all morning; it was her favorite place to be. She didn't do much, she just sat on a bench next to the small pond they had back there. She needed the fresh air, otherwise being cooped up inside. The gentle birdsongs were the only happy thing around her right now. It took her a moment to realize that the chirping wasn't the only sound in the air anymore. Someone was calling her, and she knew it was Lucan. Excitement ran through her and she stood in a sudden jolt. Her heart raced in her chest but she didn't turn around to look for him just yet. What if she was imagining it? It had happened once before. She would be crushed... but she could not not look.

Cam turned around and walked out onto the small path that led to the house. Her heart almost leap out of her chest when she saw him, still in his armour and calling out for her. "Lucan!" She called back at him before picking up her dress and running to him. She threw her arms around his neck and held onto him tightly, not even noticing that her cheeks were moist with tears now. She pulled away enough to face him and started to fix him up a little, frantically; she swept aside his hair a few times and touched any and every part of his face, making sure that he was really there with her and wiping away any dirt at the same time. She couldn't believe that she was really there.

Camila nodded although she did not agree. She had every reason to apologize, she was being so depressive that she surely couldn't be making anyone's day any brighter or better. "Thank you." She could never say that enough. Arthur gave a small yawn again in her arms and curled into her gently. Cam loved children and loved the twins. She saw a lot of their parents in them. Already Esmae was looking like she would be the little rebel or a bit of a troublemaker like her father and it made Cam smile to think of what they would be like when they grew up. They would be lovely children, there was no doubt about that, they had terrific parents, a lovely home and a caring family. Camila could remember the look on Lucan's face when he would look at his neice, he just adored her, not that he didn't like Arthur. There was a different admiration with him. Cam couldn't wait to be a mother, but her turn would be coming soon.

Cam wouldn't let herself think that Luc might not return. It wasn't an option. He simply had to return to her. And better it be broken than not at all although she wanted him to be well. Lucan had been trough many a great peril. Their love had only been strengthened through many tests and this one would only make it greater.

Cam held her nephew's little hand and he would wrap his fingers around hers as he slept. It made her smile. "Arthur's already beginning to be so strong... A true little Aubert, this one." She mused as Cairtin sat down. Cam looked up at her, the smile the child caused still on her face. "No, I'll be fine, thanks. He said he'd return next week to check up on my condition." Cam hadn't told Caitrin why she had been getting sick, nor had she told Griff quite yet. It was a news that she had hoped to share with her husband first but perhaps she would have to tell her in-laws first. Cam decided she would at least wait for Griff to return before telling Caitrin. The news was wonderful but it would be bitter-sweet without Lucan.