The young Knight and druid lay, huddled up in bed, his features in a peaceful resting state. One arm curled up protectively against his chest, whilst the other clutched at a dagger. The Knight was slightly shivering - in aftershock of his earlier nightmare, and though he slept somewhat peacefully, he was mumbling in his sleep. So deep in sleep was the druid, that the sound of the door did not disturb him, and he simply sighed in his sleep, and turned over, exposing his back to the door.
Green eyes watched the brunette warily as Merlin seemed to make up his mind about something. He was offering the hand of friendship to the warlock, but apparently Merlin seemed to be of the mind that Mordred was out to harm. But then, the warlock had never thought well of the druid. It seemed that Mordred was doomed to be a deliverer of evil - at least in Merlin's eyes. Taking a slow breath through his nose, the brunette met Merlin's eyes.
"I cannot." He explained softly. "There is nothing to go back to, this is life; this is reality."
"I believed I was doing what was right." The druid defended himself, watching Arthur warily. He didn't expect the King to understand - what would a Pendragon know of such things as fate and destiny? Morgana had laughed such things off, and it seemed that Arthur was doing the same. Would the blonde never learn from the mistakes of his elders? "You don't understand, Arthur. You have no understanding of what it is to be handed a destiny, and told that you must see it through, no matter what."
Mordred sighed, shaking his head. "Cara's death... it made me wonder, made me think. I loved her, Arthur. Can you not understand that? After all you have been through with the Queen, after all you have shared - can you, of all people, not underestand true love?"
"Your life was worth the saving, my Lord." Mordred gently reminded. "Morgana has... become something which I find abhorrent. Her world has been cast into darkness; and it has been her own doing. Yet all she can see is the destruction of others. And thank-you; I find it strange to speak my mind, but I will do my best. Please feel that the offer goes both ways. "I'm afraid I have little faith in heroes, sire. I find them to be rather callous folk." He gave a slight smile, as though to prove he was almost joking; though in fact he was being serious.
The druid's lips curled into an almost-amused smile as he watched the King struggle through the reality of what was happening. "I was dead." Mordred paused a little, before his eyes fell upon the King once again. "Prophecies are strange things, aren't they?" He asked quietly. "Destinies, fates, strings pulled by the Higher Powers that we have no control over..." He sighed softly, shaking his head. "I did not want to kill you, Arthur. There were... things at work. Things that neither of us will ever perhaps understand. But both of us were dead, and now, both of us are alive once more." He managed a weak smile. "Perhaps, by the grace of the Gods, a new destiny for each of us will arise."
Taking a slow breath, Mordred stood up, and then dropped into a kneel next to the King. "You have no reason to ever trust me, my King, but I pray that one day, you may perhaps forgive me, for I never wished for Morgana's plan to come to pass. I hoped only to swade the tide of her anger against something other than Camelot, and instead I was her instigator. I pray you can find it in your heart to forgive me."
As the King helped him to rise to his feet, speaking of necessity, Mordred's lips curled into a soft smile, something that was still somewhat foreign to him. Lightness of heart he had not expected, but here, in Camelot, he was beginning to feel as though he could belong. Arthur's words only prooved the point. He bowed his head in brief respect and acknowledgement, before raising his eyes to meet the King's. "Your words are more than I deserve, sire," he spoke softly. "But I thank you for them, nonetheless. I have done nothing to deserve your friendship, and yet you have knighted me and now further honour me by calling me friend. It is more than I deserve, sire."
Whether he would ever be comfortable calling Arthur by his first name, Mordred was unsure; the King was still royalty, and of course he held the druid's deepest respect. It almost seemed wrong to discard that by discarding the man's title. But perhaps to discard the King's words was wronger yet. A slight smile flittered across Mordred's lips once again, and he inclined his head to the King. "As you wish, Arthur," he said quietly, still smiling a little. He paused as he listened to the man's advice, and was barely able to stop himself from wondering just how far from his father's thoughts the King's own mind lay - for these were not the rules of Uther Pendragon.... perhaps Arthur was, as the druids had predicted, truly changing Camelot for the better.
"In the minds of some, a regnade druid would be considered a nobody, my Lord," He said softly, not quite arguing with Arthur, but simply making a point. He paused briefly. "Forgive me if I speak out of turn...."
The world had slowly slipped back into focus, as Mordred felt breath stir in his chest once again. Again and again, in that place where some dreamed of deserving rewards, and others dreamed of darkness, there had only been the past... relived and revealed tauntingly through Mordred's mind as the young man lamented over the mistakes of all he had done. Morgana had been so very wrong from the start... and yet... Arthur had not been the most noblest of souls as the druid had once hoped he would be.
But then, Mordred had begun to understand that he had been far too naive. Arthur was human, after all. He was not a God, not an unsurpler... simply a King attempting to right the wrongs of those before him. He had given Cara a chance for life, and she had been her own end... the druid boy could see that now. But at the time, he had been so blinded by grief... he had been blind to the truth. To have Arthur's blood on his hands, to realise what he had done as he had awoken had almost broken the young man - after all he had attempted to be, Merlin had been right. Mordred was the betrayer, and he had murdered the Greatest King of Camelot.
And then, luck had finally chanced upon him. Mordred's eyes slid over to the form of Arthur, and he breathed a soft sigh. The finding of Arthur had seemed like a miracle, and it had not taken much to convince the druids to help him give the King protection. No doubt, if Morgana had found the blonde, then Arthur would have been dead again by now. That was, of course, if Morgana was still alive. Mordred shook the thoughts away as Arthur seemed to stir, and watched silently as the King managed to grasp his bearings, taking a moment before he spoke out loud. "You are protected here, Arthur," he said quietly. "You can rest without fear of being attacked."
There were times when Mordred could hardly believe his change in fate. The dreams had all but disappeared, and at last, he finally felt as though he might belong somewhere. It seemed that Merlin still had reservations, but the druid prayed feverently that those reservations would one day change. He truly wanted to be friends with the warlock - and not just because Merlin was another magic user. No, he wanted to get to know the remarkable young man to whom Arthur owed so much, whether the King knew it or not.
Glancing at the King who walked to the side of him, Mordred felt a familiar twisting in his gut. Guilt... neverending guilt. His place was by Arthur's side, of that the young man was certain, and yet... and yet he was hiding from the King. It was times like this when the druid missed the company of those he had once known; the other druids would have talked with him, calmed his fears... but then, they would have encouraged the dreams, intoned masses regarding his supposed fate, and encouraged any thought of betrayal.
Mordred was snapped out of his thoughts by the King's casual questioning, and paused a moment, before speaking, his voice low and respectful. "Very little, my Lord," he confessed quietly. "I travelled through them once as a young boy..." escaping from Camelot... he thought but did not say, "but I confess I have very little memory of them, I am afraid."
The druid sighed quietly, quietly agreeing with Merlin. Great though Merlin's powers might be, Mordred would do anything in his power to stop anyone else from suffering the same fate as their dear King had. After all, wasn't that the service of a Knight of Camelot? Even though the table was broken, the Knighthood ended, he would stand by those rules, those morals, until his deathbed.
He glanced up as Merlin mentioned Morgana, a genuine look of confusion flickering across his features. "What of her?" he asked, shaking his head a little. "Merlin, I have pledged my allegience to you, to Arthur, to Camelot - over and over and over again. I do not know what else you would have me do. I cannot speak for Morgana, for I know nothing of her plans - I cast her aside the minute I sawy how darkened her desires were."
It was very hard for Mordred not to raise an eyebrow at being called 'young' by this woman, but he managed it... instead choosing to smile at her as he took a sip of his water. "I hope one day to undertand the court in such manners, my Lady." he stated softly. His smile only widened at her compliments to Arthur, and the druid nodded, agreeing wholeheartedly. "He is worthy of the title in every manner. A true King; in heart, body, and soul."
Mordred was unable to stop smiling as the Lady continued to speak about Arthur's qualities; qualities that others had spoken of, also. "I have heard such is true, my Lady. I confess to finding myself mystified but grateful and honoured by the grace he has shown me in Knighting me thus." He paused at her last words, studying her a little closer. "Do you not agree with commoners being Knighted, my Lady Nora?" He asked, keeping his voice light to let her know he was not angry, just curious.
"I will always have faith in the King, of that you need not fear." he assured her, inclining his head briefly.
"What will it take?" Asked the druid, his eyes upon Merlin even as the other attempted to find a way out of the reality he had condemned them to so long ago. Mordred could understand Merlin perhaps denying what had happened... denying his own part in it, but surely, this went beyond and below all sense of reason. This was not just denying the past; this was disowning the truth, and declairing the world a lie. What was it Gaius had called it, all that time ago? Disillusioned hope.
Mordred's heart went to his throat as Merlin reached the window, and he wondered, truly, if the other were so desperate to escape. "Merlin... death is not the way." He said, his voice a soft caress of its usual self. "Please, Merlin. There is no need for Camelot to suffer another loss this sad eve." Biting back what was left of his pride, the druid bent one knee forward, before kneeling before the warlock, his eyes upon Merlin, open and honest. "Emrys" he spoke softly. "I swear, in the name of Camelot, in the name of Arthur, in the name of everything we have fought for... I am no trickster. All I have ever wished for was to be your friend, and Arthur's. You seem to think I have somehow conjoured this world, but I pray you believe that I cannot; I would not have the power, and I would never wish for such a reality."
"Please Merlin. Let me prove to you the truth of what I say."
I have to admit, I don't like the way that this series seems to be going; it's almost like the writers are in a hurry to finish the series to tie up all the loose ends; and by doing so are managing to completely mess up their own characters!!!!
The young Knight laughed softly, smiling a little at the Lady's words, a shrug on his shoulders. "To an inexperienced knight such as I, perhaps being left with children is the greatest challange, my Lady," he said with a smile in her direction. "I fear, alas, that you are more couragous than I in such endevours."
Swallowing a sudden lump in his throat which had appeared at her words, Mordred nodded quickly, his eyes darkening a little. "Yes. I cannot disagree that there are those who have been... belittled; wrongly so; by people who cannot accept them. But similiarly I cannot agree that I am among them, my lady." The Knight swallowed again, looking out to the skies. "I pray that the King brings about a more just land than those that have passed; for the sakes of all."
With a shrug of his shoulders, the druid gave a small, regretful smile. "Alas, not nearly as long as you, my Lady. Iv'e known him all but a few weeks, I'm afraid. Well, technically speaking, at least."
I agree; in that in this series, there is a lot of inconsistancies with the writers; they seem to be forgetting things, omitting things, changing the characters to fit their purposes, which really bugs me (and I'm sure, others too!). They seem to be dragging out the reveal; if it will ever happen at all now; and I definately think it is more them than the character that is keeping his secret from being revealed from Arthur. I think very much this series it is about Arthur being protected rather than magic being revealed; Merlin's gaze is a lot more focused, so to speak, and he is being rather selective at times - however, there have been infuriating moments in this series where he's used magic right in front of Arthur and the Knights (or just Arthur), where the King should have realised something was up, but has turned a blind eye.
I think there is a big part of Merlin that fears revealing his magic because of how much it will change. He would go from being a somewhat useless (in Arthur's eyes) but loyal servant to the most powerful sorcerer in Camelot. This would put a tremendous strain on his and Arthur's relationship, I believe, no matter how much Arthur might be ready to accept magic into his Kingdom - even though part of me still very much believes that Arthur knows about Merlin's powers.
I also think Gaius has had much to do with Merlin being so secretive with his magic; Gaius, and whatever brought Merlin to Camelot in the first place. To go to a place that is known for detesting magic, for the first thing you witness there to be someone being murdrered for having magic must have been terrifying for Merlin; and in the years he's been Arthurs manservant, he's had to learn to be very careful who he trusts. Perhaps its just taking him some time to fully trust Arthur; though I agree that the King is more than ready, perhaps, to hear the truth without sending his friend to the executioner's block. I have to admit, Merlin's voicing that fear of being executed did shock me a little, considering how far I thought he and Arthur had come, but in some ways I can see where he is coming from. I agree that because of Merlin's conceal of his magic would have influenced Arthur's view on magic in general - after all, how can you believe something to be good if all you have seen or all you have evidence of is it being evil? - but at the same time I think Merlin has been cautioned into being... cautious and careful.
I think Mordred is a HUGE factor for Merlin; especially considering how close the writers have chosen to make Mordred and Arthur - it makes things that much more worrying for Merlin. I too was under the assumption that Arthur knew and accepted Mordred's being a druid, and was rather irked that apparenlty he has either forgotton or was unaware - then again, the matter has never been addressed directly by Arthur to Mordred or anyone else... he could just be keeping quiet about it.
I have to confess, Elyan's death irked me because it felt very much as though it was done for the sake of getting rid of Elyan and sewing the seeds for Guinevère's turn against Arthur and Camelot (Even though it was induced by Morgana's magic). I think the one thing we need ot remember is that though Merlin is obviously very powerful, he's still only barely a man, and inexperienced - he learns what he needs to as he needs to; there's every chance that he might not have known how to deal with whatever the Tower held, and that sending him in there may have ended in Merlin's death. I agree, though, that his reveal is taking far, far to long!
I've mixed feelings on what Merlin revealing his magic to Arthur could do. It could most definately change Arthur's view on magic for the better; but at the same time, he could very much feel betrayed by Merlin's lying to him for so long, and as we've seen in the past, Arthur doesn't like to be made a fool of. I see their situation very much like a game of chess; if a piece moves in slightly the wrong direction, it could br knocked off the board altogether!
I pray that the spoilers are wrong in regards to Mordred turning against Arthur - it seems a poor way for him to turn so completely against the King. I desperately hope we get the reveal, otherwise the series will seem a little cheap and pointless to me, I have to admit. We've been waiting so long! I agree, I'm half worried the series will end in Arthur's death, especially with all the hints towards it; but if it does, then it makes me wonder what the "High note" the series is supposed to end on is!
Merlin - I totally agree! In the roleplaying world we have much more time to write things out and explore things... the writers are on time constraints and money constraints! However, I think the writers are definately messing us around this series!!
I agree; Merlin's magic does need to be revealed, but I don't necessarily agree that it's Merlin's fault that he's not trusting Arthur. I think the trust is there, but there's also a lot of fear, too. Merlin has a lot of responsibilities; not just to Arthur, but to Camelot, to Killgharrah and Aithusia, to Gaius, and to Albion - if the stakes weren't so high, perhaps he would have revealed himself far sooner. But I think Merlin knows that Arthur's current lax judgement on magic is due a lot to circumstance; that if something had gone wrong when they cured Guinevère (or however you want to call it!) then Arthur would have completely turned against magic; the way he did during "The Wicked Day", and even earlier in the series, in the episode where Morgause revealed the truth of Arthur's birth to him. Arthur has proven to be rather influencial through circumstance, and I feel Merlin knows that... however, I do completely agree that if he were to reveal his magic, then there is so much more that he could do with it.
Don't forget also that there's the major issue of Mordred for Merlin, too; even though Mordred knows that Merlin is a warlock, he doesn't know the extent of Merlin's powers, and I suspect Merlin wants to keep it that way! No matter what Mordred's true intentions are (as of yet we have no idea), Merlin doesn't trust him; and thus it isnt safe for him to reveal his place at Arthur's side just yet.
I think Merlin's words in last week's episode most likely came from fear; after all, no matter what, the ban on magic still exists in Camelot, and Merlin is closest to the King of all; he doesn't know what Arthur would do - even if he hopes the King would act favourably, he can't be sure. Even though Arthur is slowly beginning to trust more now. I agree though, it's time that Merlin takes a leap of faith. However, I feel for him too; every other time he's tried to do just that - not with revealing magic, of course - it tends to go ill for Merlin! This series shows a wiser and more serious Merlin; a no-nonsense but knows the risks warlock; I think he now knows teh true risks of what a reveal would do.
I love the dynamic between Mordred and Merlin; it's so tense and fantastic; but I do wish they would use Mordred more in this series! Especially as it's going to be the last. It seems a bit random for Mordred to turn against Arthur as he's supposed to do; especially as there are only probably around 4 episodes left for it to happen! MOrdred can't help it!!! It's destiny!!!
You're welcome! And yes, they did, but I would have loved to see what led to Merlin and Arthur spying on Gwen and Morgana in the first place! Something must have led to that particular moment, and it's interesting that they chose not to show it...! Even though they did, as you say, talk about it afterwards; with Gaius explaining things and Merlin explaining it as well.
I think after the events of The Wicked Day, and after losing Gwen before, Arthur is at a place where he is willing to do almost whatever it takes to get Guinevère back; hence the lack of internal struggle. With Uther, the struggle was much more about knowing that his father detested magic, and wouldn't have approved - and whilst the same was somewhat true of Guinevère, I think Arthur was very willing to risk that in order to free her from Morgana's spell. I also think that Arthur's beginning to trust magic more than before - he would never trust Guinevère's life and reason to something he didn't trust or wasn't beginning to trust, and I think this episode, in many ways, shows him slowly beginning to understand that magic isn't entirely evil; back when "The Wicked Day", Arthur isn't King; he's inexperienced and hasn't the world on his shoulders. He very much looks to his father, and I think that helped with his internal struggle. In this episode, he was very much his own man; trusting in his manservant, and trusting that Merlin's knowledge wouldn't let him down.
To put it simply - I think Arthur knows that Merlin would never do anything to put Guinevère's life at risk, and wouldn't have suggested using magic if it hadn't been the very last resort.
And Merlin... YES. Agreed!!! Arthur definately knows: there's no way that Arthur would have ever left his manservant behind!!!
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